Thinking...

Thinking is something that I have always done in massive amounts through my life. Though it sounds like a great thing, it not always is. It tends to keep me up at night, make me worry a lot, and affect those around me to tell me “don’t worry” in almost all situations. It came to a point where I felt like I couldn’t be without this constant worry, I figured, I needed to find a way to relax. Over the last few weeks I have been re-reading some of my Buddhist class books and have found something that really helped me. Buddhism seems to be a lot about paying attention...

A Good Comic...

A few days ago a friend of mine sent me a good comic that had some great insight into life. Here is the image: I think this image really tells us about something about the idea of life and things. Putting things to good use is very important. I never really understood why people think its important to preserve their items through history, like wealth. I mean look at the Egyptians and how much they obsessed over bringing their things with them after they died. I think its important to help others with what you have and to be productive. ...

Walking No Place...

This last few weeks have been interesting ones for sure. They have been well, great! But in reflection of that great time, god what have I learned about myself. Thanksgiving is a time where for many people you get to go home and spend time with family. For me this is true too, something that I miss while going to college and all. I like to be home with my family, seeing my sisters, my mom, and all the attachments to those people. Its really a wonderful time. It also comes with a lot of free time, time to think, and by think I mean really really think. Something I have been...

Full Circle...

It is truly amazing how one instance in our lives can change from “good” to “bad” in a moment. So what determines this? Do we truly change the moment? Do we change the world? Perception is every thing. So you are having a bad day, ok that sucks. But why? Most people don’t ask this question, and if they do they don’t ask it to truly understand it. We look out at what affects our lives and what seems to make it a bad day, but we forget a big part of the picture, well maybe all the picture… ourselves. It is through our senses, our...

Happy Sad...

This weekend turned out to be a very interesting one for sure. Friday night we had a get together for the Navy and Marines and it was a good party. After that we went out to take the town by storm. Well it wasn’t really that much of a challenge because hardly anyone was out in town. So a friend of mine and myself went around to different bars to see what was going on. We started at one side of the town and ended up coming right back to where we started. When we were walking in I saw a beautiful woman. Yeah I know I had been drinking a little so whos to say how really...

The Clay Mind...

For as long as I can remember I have been experiencing lucid dreaming in my life. It really has brought up a drive inside me to find answers and to explore this area of my life more. One thing that it has lead me to is to understand more in depth types of lucid dreams where I can learn more about my subconscious mind, and what ever else that might be hidden in the depths of my brain, and I am sure a lot is in there based on the fact that we have over 100 billion neurons just in our brains. The Buddhist teach of many different extra-bodily states that a person can obtain....

People...

I find the experience of people interesting. We get upset, we get happy, and we sometimes even get upset to get happy. I mean really, how odd is that? We all are very complicated beings. We are the only species on this earth that we know of that can contemplate the idea of our very own existence, and even end our existence sometimes on that very thought. Even our most destructive abilities we can find astonishment through the level of thinking it took in order to come up with such of an idea. We are truly an amazing species. With all this amazement how is it that we find...

Love and Loved...

I have found that through life one of the hardest things to not grasp onto are the people who I have loved. There are those who have been inspiring to my life, those who have impacted my life both negative and positive, and those who were not in it long enough to do neither… but still are missed all the same. Why is it that I miss them? The hardest thing, to fully enjoy them when you can. In the military its sometimes extremely hard on a person. Its not always the war that tares the heart into two. Sometimes its the moving around the constant gaining and losing of...

The Days Go On...

Today was one of those days. They seem to linger for ever, never ending without ease. I didn’t do anything different and really I woke up even on the “right” side of the bed, but still something was off. It’s days like today why meditation and the understanding that nothing is constant that is so important. My speech today was the main thing that was a problem. I notices that the words I said seemed to be not words of wisdom and seemed to be used to cause harm. I could see the actions of my words, I knew the intent, but still I did them because I...

Death...

Many times in my life I have been scared of a lot of things. I have been scared of talking in front of crowds (who hasn’t), been scared of heights, been scared of having a family, and been scared of …. Many of the things that I am scared of others might look at think how funny it is that I was scared of these things. The reason is mainly they have not had the experiences I have had in order to consider those emotions which link to the event in order to cause them to be scary. Why is it that some people are afraid of things that others are not, and what is this...